If you don’t step forward, you’ll always be in the same place.
The previous post was inspired by a scene in a movie a friend had encouraged me to see. I haven’t seen the entire film but I love it!
It’s all about facing your fear to see how far you can go… or how happy and fun your life can be. Most of us are scared to get hurt. We tend to cling to things that gives us security and comfort. We’re scared to let go and move on… thinking we might fall again– and break a bone and not have the strength to stand up to clean up the mess.
I am one of those people. Until now I’m scared to completely lose everything that’s left of my old self. Scared to lose the few people who I can call mine. My family, my friend, myself. It’s stupid, I know but I’m too scared to give it a try.
I hate myself for always holding back. For not doing all the things that I wanna do. For not letting the people dear to me know how much I love them. I don’t know when or what will make me change. I guess I should find some place else. Where I can start anew. Where I can find myself… or the missing part of it.
